People say they love me. I believe them. But they don't give me what i desperately need. I don't ask for riches. I don't ask for hard things. All i ask for is love the way I'd like it. I'm not not asking for hardship from anyone. Is respect a hardship. Is touch a hardship.
How did i get to be so old and never find anyone to love me as I'd like. I can only think after two marriages and four kids it must be somehow my fault but i don't know what i did. I don't know how to make it better and i don't know how to face tomorrow without a clue that the test of my life will be any better.