Saturday, February 28, 2015

In World

This is living happily ever after!

During the day I go to RL work and I can't tell you how much I am not enjoying that. But coming home, I find my Taz. In fact he comes and finds me at work each day. And that is what bliss feels like.

In the time since I was living in SL I have been very busy in RL and mostly building a new home and setting up a garden. And the not so small detail of marrying my SL partner friend and great joy, Taz.

So all the planning is done. The activity has settled, and though I know all the things I wanted are around me, I have been really battling with depression once more.

I wish that black dog would just leave me alone!

So when it gets bad enough I end up standing still, clawing at my misery, clawing at my Taz until I realise I need to do something. And I know things that help.
Vitamin B and creativity.

Steelhead Lighthouse and St Albans house rebuilt
In a few weeks I will be getting a kiln and that excites me a lot but in the weeks until then I have allowed myself some play in SL once more.
I have been putting out some of my favourite things. Things I had forgotten and others I treasure.

The maker of my chair no longer has an in-world store

A sad thing has been reading the profiles of many of the creators to find out that they are not in world anymore. Little sadnesses.

But a big happiness is sitting by the sea with my tiger in our sl home. RL and SL Mr and Mrs Belgar.

Taz and I sharing some bliss

Thursday, October 23, 2014

A Conclusion, a Beginning

Blogging from a mobile phone is not a superior way to really get in the mood and sort through all the thoughts and emotions.
It's really just going to be news highlights.

3 weeks ago Taz and I  got married in real life. Our second life meeting at a garden party was echoed in another garden party. My longing for a home at the waters edge that lead to many seaside sl homes was satiated (to a degree at least) by the location looking over a beautiful South East Australian coastal village Bay.

The day couldn't have been improved. The sun shone,  the guests sparkled in spring colours, my kids smiled, my family and friends gathered then helped serve lunch and clean up and chat and photograph, dad's  jazz band played......
It was exactly as I  hoped.

And best of all?  There was Tas. N
o longer a virtual presence. .a real. .wonderful. .physical and joyful presence.

Sunday, October 5, 2014


Today's the day
7 years ago, standing in the ICU after my brother's terrible accident, I decided that if you are lucky enough to be alive you really should make it worth while. Don't just be alive. Enjoy being alive.
I decided on a 10 year plan. See the kids through school then leave to marital home and make a life for myself.
10 years would see all the kids through school.
10 years was a long time to wait but it seemed like the best solution.

Then a year later I met Mark in second life.

It was Soliel Snooks garden party as she opened her newest garden store in Otenths sim... Near my old sl home in Wyre.

Suddenly the maths in the equation didn't add up and 10 years wasn't ok.

Well it is 6 years now. .. short of the 10 and in very few hours time we are getting married.
The wedding isn't the start of the journey but a landmark in it.

It's going to be a great day.  Lots of friends and family are joining us for a real life garden party.  I must get some sleep before that!!!

Sunday, August 31, 2014

5 weeks

5 weeks from today, Taz and Audrey will get married. Almost 6 years to the day after we first met at Soliel Snook's garden party.

I dont like formal affairs so another garden party celebrating this wonderful day will providea nice piece of symmetry.

Wish we could include our old SL friends

Friday, March 28, 2014

4 weeks from today....

This is a story I have told before - 2008 I was filling a great emptiness in my life, playing on line. I was meeting lots of people. The kind of people that I fitted in with. It was revolutionary and I learned to like myself for the first time in a very, very long time. 

And then I met Tzaizqain. Mark. If I had known what was going to happen maybe I would have hidden my heart and resisted because my firm opinion at the time was that I would never - ever - get married again. No way was I going to trust my happiness and self esteem with another person.

Audrey and Tzaizqain
Me and Mark

But I didn't know what was going to happen and I accidentally fell in love with the cat. Man. Pom.

So here we are nearly five and a half years later and Mark has finally had his visa granted to come and spend the rest of his days, learning to be an Ozzie.

There are some things he has still to learn:
  • living with teenagers
  • living with me
  • being the tong master at a BBQ
But I am so optimistic. I have been very challenging over these 5 or so years as I come complete with baggage to this new relationship. Yet he has met every challenge with love and determination. He's convinced me!

So in 4 weeks I meet him in Melbourne and we work on living happily ever after!

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Another Chapter

I am not often seen in SL however the news of this year needs to be at least recognised in my SL space as that is where it was born.

A long, long time ago I met Taz in SL. When I first joined SL, it never occurred to me that it would be a profound catalyst. At the time I was lonely and broken hearted and basically hiding.

I don't think I quite appreciated how empty my life had been until suddenly, without looking or asking for it, it was full. Full of Taz.

These days I call him Mark and Audrey hardly hears her name spoken anymore. 

I pop into SL now and then and feel the loss of something so special. It is so full of memories. Possibly the happiest and hardest days were passed there in 2008. Such a long time ago. I miss the friends I made. I miss the laughter.

It is the community of people that I crave and long to belong to, but I don't have time to give what a friend must give to support that community.
However what I have now in real life is wonderful. I am a better mum and a better partner.

Thursday, March 14, 2013

As seen on A House is Built...

Yes, I am playing in SL once more.
And after spending a little while unpacking my house and garden, today I did just a little value adding to my building !

While home with a very hideous cold, I have been stretching my graphics-muscles and seeing if I can remember all the things that used to be second nature.
Today's goal was to put new windows into the bedroom. The old ones were for a crowded street where the view was nothing much, so I allowed for them to be opaque. I have replaced those windows and changed the cornices and colour and tadah.. prettier bedroom :)